Stressed out and I didn't have a good day

I only got like...4 hours of sleep last night and had to work a double today.
Needless to say, I was really tired this morning.

Also, when I woke up the power had gone out...turns out it was lovely IPL shutting off my electricity because I had an outstanding balance. I have to pay $212 to get it turned back on which was what I had saved for Arizona trip at the end of this week.

I am really afraid I am not going to be able to go to Arizona because I wont have any money. I am supposed to be driving and haven't gotten my car all fixed up for this trip because I have had no money. The week my grandpa died, I didn't work at all so that just ate up all of my savings.

My ethics paper is due the day after I get back from Arizona when originally it wasn't due until April 6th. So now I have...three days to write a paper and I haven't written papers since I was in high school....almost 4 years ago. Wouldn't be such a big deal but I have to present in front of the class.

And as I was leaving to go back to work today, Carlton had put a piece of paper at my door saying that they would be in tomorrow from 9-5 to "inspect" my apartment. FUCKING AWESOME. I haven't had time to paint or clean anything. I also have cats that they don't know about so somehow I need to figure out how to hide them.

I have to take a text tonight that I will probably fail because I haven't done my reading.


Alot of this is my fault but some of it was kind of out of my hands.


I am so fucking stressed out and tired. I know I wont get to sleep early tonight because after I take my test I have to clean and start painting my house. Yes, I get to do this all by myself too! It would be cool if only the Carlton had let me know maybe...a week in advance??!?!?!


GAH!!!! :(

naive

Give me your eyes
I need sunshine
Give me your eyes
I need sunshine
Your blood
Your bones
Your voice
and your ghost

We've both been very brave
Walk around with both legs
Fight the scary day
We both pull the tricks out of our sleeves

but I'll believe in anything
and you'll believe in anything
said I'll believe in anything
and you'll believe in anything

If I could take the fire out from the water
I'd share a life and you'd share a life
If I could take the fire out from the water
I'd share a life and you'd share a life
If I could take the fire out from the water
I'd take you where nobody knows you
And nobody gives a damn
said nobody knows you
and nobody gives a damn

and I could take another hit for you
and I could take away your trips from you
and I could take away the salt from your eyes
and take away the spitting salt in you
and I could give you my apologies
by handing over my neologies
and I could take away the shaking knees
and I could give you all the olive trees
oh look at the trees and look at my face and look at a place far away from here

Give me your eyes
I need sunshine
Give me your eyes
I need sunshine
Your blood
Your bones
Your voice
and your ghost

We've both been very brave
Walk around with both legs
Fight the scary day
We both pull the tricks out of our sleeves

but I'll believe in anything
and you'll believe in anything

If I could take the fire out from the water
I'd share a life and you'd share a life
If I could take the fire out from the water
I'd share a life and you'd share a life
If I could take the fire out from the water
I'd take you where nobody knows you
And nobody gives a damn
I said nobody knows you
and nobody gives a damn
I said nobody knows you
and nobody gives a damn either way
About your blood
your bones
your voice
and ghost
because nobody knows you
and nobody gives a damn either way

Oh god.

I am so over every male I know.


So over it. Wow.

???

Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why?

Things happen for a reason right?

I didn't have to convince you, you fell into my lap!

Time to focus on real things.

Uhmmm

It takes more than a month to find yourself...

Why I love being a server!

When asked what I do besides work, I say "go to school, work at another restaurant named Zorba's and pay bills!"

Everyone is always impressed with how I live my life and yesterday I had a mad ask me the same question. I responded the same way and he told me that if I were his daughter he would be very proud of me.

:)

Also, almost every table of women I get, and I kid you not, they always comment on long my eyelashes are and how beautiful my eyes are. Its flattering but I am losing eyelashes with all of the times I have to pull on my lashes to prove that they are not fake.

Serving is such a self esteem booster! HA.


Makes me feel goood!