tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-41037169415123515602024-02-19T07:59:25.428-08:00Behind the eye'sJennifer Landonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10259737439436972740noreply@blogger.comBlogger24125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4103716941512351560.post-18644052720734361162009-03-18T11:03:00.000-07:002009-03-18T11:08:13.020-07:00GrrrrrrrYou know what is really starting to make me mad?<br /><br />ETHICS! My teacher was wrong the entire time about the dates for school. Her syllabus was all off schedule. Instead of getting it corrected immediately she decides to wait and play it by ear.<br /><br />She finally gets it right right before spring break. There is a paper we are currently all working on a due dates for when we have to present our paper to the class and then debate. Originally my paper wasn't scheduled until the 6th of April....NOW ITS DUE THE DAY WE GET BACK FROM SPRING BREAK!!!!!<br /><br />Totally fucked up my spring break on so many levels. Not only am I stuck at home instead of with my best friend in Arizona, I have to worry about all of the Ethics shit I have to do.<br /><br />FML!<br /><br />ps. sara doesnt think she is my best friend anymore but she will. I will make her.<br /><br /><br />pps. one good thing did come of this week. :)Jennifer Landonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10259737439436972740noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4103716941512351560.post-88853564295037254232009-03-17T13:04:00.000-07:002009-03-17T13:07:03.844-07:00stupid shitwe all do dumb things when we are young.<br /><br /><br />i kind of realized how stupid i have been before.<br /><br />i have been a little slutty and i am not proud of it. that is changing starting last night. hahahahah<br /><br />no but seriously, i am not going to be like that anymore. i remember certain things from my past and now i am thinking...WTF why did i do that?<br /><br /><br />good thing i realized this sooner rather than later.Jennifer Landonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10259737439436972740noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4103716941512351560.post-79567399609538241572009-03-15T22:48:00.000-07:002009-03-15T22:49:23.769-07:00<p>When the rain<br />Is blowing in your face<br />And the whole world<br />Is on your case<br />I could offer you<br />A warm embrace<br />To make you feel my love</p><div style="margin: 5px; float: right; width: 300px; height: 262px;"><iframe src="http://static.kovideo.net/bnr/default/default-300x250.html" marginwidth="0" marginheight="0" allowtransparency="1" scrolling="no" width="300" frameborder="0" height="261"></iframe></div><p>When the evening shadows<br />And the stars appear<br />And there is no one there<br />To dry your tears<br />I could hold you<br />For a million years<br />To make you feel my love</p><p>I know you<br />Haven't made<br />Your mind up yet<br />But I would never<br />Do you wrong<br />I've known it<br />From the moment<br />That we met<br />No doubt in my mind<br />Where you belong</p><p>I'd go hungry<br />I'd go black and blue<br />I'd go crawling<br />Down the avenue<br />No, there's nothing<br />That I wouldn't do<br />To make you feel my love</p><p>The storms are raging<br />On the rolling sea<br />And on the highway of regret<br />Though winds of change<br />Are throwing wild and free<br />You ain't seen nothing<br />Like me yet</p><p>I could make you happy<br />Make your dreams come true<br />Nothing that I wouldn't do<br />Go to the ends<br />Of the Earth for you<br />To make you feel my love</p><p><br /></p><p><br /></p><p><object width="425" height="344"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/0put0_a--Ng&hl=en&fs=1"></param><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"></param><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/0put0_a--Ng&hl=en&fs=1" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowscriptaccess="always" allowfullscreen="true" width="425" height="344"></embed></object></p><p><br /></p><p>makes me think of anyone who loved me more than the last was capable of.<br /></p>Jennifer Landonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10259737439436972740noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4103716941512351560.post-65365909174045946892009-03-14T11:37:00.000-07:002009-03-14T11:46:58.405-07:00QuestionsI think I might have found part of the answer to the question we have been asking myself all week...<br /><br /><br />I can;t bring myself to be with anyone else. I can't do it.<br />There are some great guys I have found out there. Ones that treat me well and are nice to me and ones that I am attracted to. But when it comes to having sex with someone or being someone's "girlfriend" I can't do it. When I am in my right mind. I just can't bring myself to be with anyone.<br /> <br /><br />I have never felt this way before. About anyone. Even in past relationships when I have liked someone and they broke up with me, I would be sad and lonely but I never had any problem being with someone else. This is the weirdest feeling I have ever had.<br /><br /><br /><br /><br />That took me so long to find out and I found out the hard way.<br /><br />I guess sometimes you have to push people away to see what was really there all along.Jennifer Landonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10259737439436972740noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4103716941512351560.post-46348025104590783162009-03-13T12:59:00.001-07:002009-03-13T12:59:31.144-07:00It's looking like a limb torn off<br />Or altogether just taken apart<br />We're reeling through an endless fall<br />We are the ever-living ghost of what once was<br /><br />But no one is ever gonna love you more than I do<br />No one's gonna love you more than I do<br /><br />And anything to make you smile<br />It is my better side of you to admire<br />But they should never take so long<br />Just to be over then back to another one<br /><br />But no one is ever gonna love you more than I do<br />No one's gonna love you more than I do<br /><br />But someone,<br />They could have warned you<br />When things start splitting at the seams and now<br />The whole thing's tumbling down<br />Things start splitting at the seams and now<br />If things start splitting at the seams and now,<br />It's tumbling down<br />Hard.<br /><br />Anything to make you smile<br />You are the ever-living ghost of what once was<br />I never want to hear you say<br />That you'd be better off<br />Or you liked it that way<br /><br />But no one is ever gonna love you more than I do<br />No one's gonna love you more than I do<br /><br />But someone<br />They should have warned you<br />When things start splitting at the seams and now<br />The whole thing's tumbling down<br />Things start splitting at the seams and now<br />If things start splitting at the seams and now,<br />It's tumbling down<br />HardJennifer Landonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10259737439436972740noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4103716941512351560.post-91749359372306940422009-03-13T09:32:00.001-07:002009-03-13T09:37:04.153-07:00this is when it actually beginsthe getting over it part.<br /><br />i wish i hadn't waited so long. i don't want to be sad and i don't want this to take forever.<br /><br />i think that maybe all of this progressing into what it did has made me see everything a little clearly. i wanted some clarity and i want to have closure and i wanted to feel not so confused.<br /><br />i think i have those things now. not so much the clarity but the closure and confusion.<br /><br />i know what i need to know about this situation.<br /><br /><br />i have said my apologies and i have told you what my heart feels.<br />i told you had found the forgiveness in my heart.<br /><br /><br /><br />goodbye.Jennifer Landonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10259737439436972740noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4103716941512351560.post-82920756906036872542009-03-13T01:39:00.000-07:002009-03-13T01:42:13.582-07:00I dont even knowSomehow you have captured my heart by not even being around.<br /><br /><br />I am so bummed and my heart wont be able to love for while.<br /><br /><br />things will get better things will get better things will get better things will get better....<br /><br /><br /><br />"you would be foolish jen".....you are right, I only have myself to blame this time and so be it. I will learn from my mistakes.Jennifer Landonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10259737439436972740noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4103716941512351560.post-7947042862706978232009-03-12T01:18:00.000-07:002009-03-12T01:20:27.967-07:00bumer cityi wish i could have felt this way without pushing you away.<br /><br /><br />no more arizona.... :(<br /><br /><br />so bummer everywhere.Jennifer Landonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10259737439436972740noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4103716941512351560.post-34544177161709876652009-03-11T21:54:00.000-07:002009-03-11T21:59:23.917-07:00:(no more AZ...<br /><br />so bummed.Jennifer Landonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10259737439436972740noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4103716941512351560.post-75117620537693256362009-03-11T12:34:00.001-07:002009-03-11T12:34:34.212-07:00A peacebone got found in the dinosaur wing<br />I've been jumping all over but my views are slowly shrinking<br />I was a Jugular vein in a juggler's girl<br />I was supposedly leaking the most interesting colors<br />While half of my fingers are dipped in the sand<br />You progress in letters, but you're used to cooking broccoli<br />The other side of take out is mildew on rice<br />And an obsession with the past is like a dead fly<br />Only a few things are related to the "old times"<br />Then we did believe in magic and we did die<br />It's not my words that you should follow, it's your insides<br />You're just an inside<br />Adjust your insides<br />You're just an inside<br /><br />I'll bet the monster was happy when they made him a maze<br />'Cause he don't understand intentions, he just looks at a face<br />I'll bet the bubbles exploded to tickle the bath<br />All the birds are very curious, all the fish are at the surface<br />With half of me waiting for myself to get calm<br />I'm like a pelican at red tide, I'm a corpse, I'm not a fisherman<br />And a blowout does not mean I will have a good night<br />'Cause an obsession with the past is like a dead fly<br />And just a few things are related to the "old times"<br />When we did believe in magic and we did die<br />It's not my words that you should follow, it's your insides<br />You're just an inside<br />Adjust your insides<br />You're just an inside<br /><br />I start in a hose and I'll end in a yard<br />When I feel like I'm stealing I can't keep myself from hearing God<br />Only the taste of your cooking can make me bow on the ground<br />It was the clouds that carved the mountains, it was the mountains that made the kids scream<br />Oh well she bore all her parts but she never was found<br />You think "I'll carve a path through New York and be an artist", but are you anything?<br />Then you find out you can't ask a baby to cry<br />And an obsession with the past is like a dead fly<br />And just a few things are related to the "old times"<br />When we did believe in magic and we did die<br />It's not my words that you should follow, it's your insides<br />You're just an inside<br />Adjust your insides<br />You're just an inside <!--ringtones and media links -->Jennifer Landonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10259737439436972740noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4103716941512351560.post-27365170310510225392009-03-10T18:42:00.000-07:002009-03-10T18:51:55.258-07:00Stressed out and I didn't have a good dayI only got like...4 hours of sleep last night and had to work a double today.<br />Needless to say, I was really tired this morning.<br /><br />Also, when I woke up the power had gone out...turns out it was lovely IPL shutting off my electricity because I had an outstanding balance. I have to pay $212 to get it turned back on which was what I had saved for Arizona trip at the end of this week. <br /><br />I am really afraid I am not going to be able to go to Arizona because I wont have any money. I am supposed to be driving and haven't gotten my car all fixed up for this trip because I have had no money. The week my grandpa died, I didn't work at all so that just ate up all of my savings.<br /><br />My ethics paper is due the day after I get back from Arizona when originally it wasn't due until April 6th. So now I have...three days to write a paper and I haven't written papers since I was in high school....almost 4 years ago. Wouldn't be such a big deal but I have to present in front of the class.<br /><br />And as I was leaving to go back to work today, Carlton had put a piece of paper at my door saying that they would be in tomorrow from 9-5 to "inspect" my apartment. FUCKING AWESOME. I haven't had time to paint or clean anything. I also have cats that they don't know about so somehow I need to figure out how to hide them.<br /><br />I have to take a text tonight that I will probably fail because I haven't done my reading.<br /><br /><br />Alot of this is my fault but some of it was kind of out of my hands.<br /><br /><br />I am so fucking stressed out and tired. I know I wont get to sleep early tonight because after I take my test I have to clean and start painting my house. Yes, I get to do this all by myself too! It would be cool if only the Carlton had let me know maybe...a week in advance??!?!?!<br /><br /><br />GAH!!!! :(Jennifer Landonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10259737439436972740noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4103716941512351560.post-52275502102013325662009-03-09T11:55:00.000-07:002009-03-09T11:56:57.343-07:00naiveGive me your eyes<br />I need sunshine<br />Give me your eyes<br />I need sunshine<br />Your blood<br />Your bones<br />Your voice<br />and your ghost<br /><br />We've both been very brave<br />Walk around with both legs<br />Fight the scary day<br />We both pull the tricks out of our sleeves<br /><br />but I'll believe in anything<br />and you'll believe in anything<br />said I'll believe in anything<br />and you'll believe in anything<br /><br />If I could take the fire out from the water<br />I'd share a life and you'd share a life<br />If I could take the fire out from the water<br />I'd share a life and you'd share a life<br />If I could take the fire out from the water<br />I'd take you where nobody knows you<br />And nobody gives a damn<br />said nobody knows you<br />and nobody gives a damn<br /><br />and I could take another hit for you<br />and I could take away your trips from you<br />and I could take away the salt from your eyes<br />and take away the spitting salt in you<br />and I could give you my apologies<br />by handing over my neologies<br />and I could take away the shaking knees<br />and I could give you all the olive trees<br />oh look at the trees and look at my face and look at a place far away from here<br /><br />Give me your eyes<br />I need sunshine<br />Give me your eyes<br />I need sunshine<br />Your blood<br />Your bones<br />Your voice<br />and your ghost<br /><br />We've both been very brave<br />Walk around with both legs<br />Fight the scary day<br />We both pull the tricks out of our sleeves<br /><br />but I'll believe in anything<br />and you'll believe in anything<br /><br />If I could take the fire out from the water<br />I'd share a life and you'd share a life<br />If I could take the fire out from the water<br />I'd share a life and you'd share a life<br />If I could take the fire out from the water<br />I'd take you where nobody knows you<br />And nobody gives a damn<br />I said nobody knows you<br />and nobody gives a damn<br />I said nobody knows you<br />and nobody gives a damn either way<br />About your blood<br />your bones<br />your voice<br />and ghost<br />because nobody knows you<br />and nobody gives a damn either wayJennifer Landonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10259737439436972740noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4103716941512351560.post-37908546501336997682009-03-06T00:38:00.000-08:002009-03-06T00:40:27.417-08:00Oh god.I am so over every male I know.<br /><br /><br />So over it. Wow.Jennifer Landonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10259737439436972740noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4103716941512351560.post-14273872293399888352009-03-05T13:30:00.000-08:002009-03-05T13:31:23.090-08:00???Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? 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Why?Jennifer Landonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10259737439436972740noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4103716941512351560.post-57589626060779391662009-03-05T01:16:00.000-08:002009-03-05T01:17:26.515-08:00Things happen for a reason right?<br /><br />I didn't have to convince you, you fell into my lap!<br /><br />Time to focus on real things.Jennifer Landonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10259737439436972740noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4103716941512351560.post-46058602439285454552009-03-04T21:42:00.001-08:002009-03-04T21:45:23.423-08:00Uhmmm<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi9VXOIBjIfx4r91-pgZ267JAkxv4rTsJu9hHGoo3-8O3aKYg5ShSUiwU2-1Dck8ZyraXIfC2jf3F6BzB3zyGOQMDwbLPhfDXzyz2SLIe_f9shg43fPPltl4HDZ2-Q7TSbyrkjzc1nDsuH9/s1600-h/Untitled-1.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer; width: 101px; height: 320px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi9VXOIBjIfx4r91-pgZ267JAkxv4rTsJu9hHGoo3-8O3aKYg5ShSUiwU2-1Dck8ZyraXIfC2jf3F6BzB3zyGOQMDwbLPhfDXzyz2SLIe_f9shg43fPPltl4HDZ2-Q7TSbyrkjzc1nDsuH9/s320/Untitled-1.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5309575168081584322" border="0" /></a><br />It takes more than a month to find yourself...Jennifer Landonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10259737439436972740noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4103716941512351560.post-41765515518758926222009-03-04T12:34:00.000-08:002009-03-04T12:40:25.626-08:00Why I love being a server!When asked what I do besides work, I say "go to school, work at another restaurant named Zorba's and pay bills!"<br /><br />Everyone is always impressed with how I live my life and yesterday I had a mad ask me the same question. I responded the same way and he told me that if I were his daughter he would be very proud of me.<br /><br />:)<br /><br />Also, almost every table of women I get, and I kid you not, they always comment on long my eyelashes are and how beautiful my eyes are. Its flattering but I am losing eyelashes with all of the times I have to pull on my lashes to prove that they are not fake.<br /><br />Serving is such a self esteem booster! HA.<br /><br /><br />Makes me feel goood!Jennifer Landonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10259737439436972740noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4103716941512351560.post-61631128918032061842009-02-28T10:32:00.000-08:002009-02-28T10:42:47.769-08:00So yesterday was the funeral.<br /><br />Yesterday was harder than the showing. My daddy even cried! It was really sad to see hi brother cry. This man, whom I think was older than him just sobbed and sobbed. It was so sad.<br /><br />He was also in the National Guard, so they had two Guardsmen come in and give a salute and do the flag thing...hahah I am not sure what it is called. It was actually quite amazing.<br /><br />I felt so honored when I road in the procession. There were so many people at his funeral and so many people road in the procession. His brothers and my two uncles road in the 57' Chevy! That car is so fucking awesome. I still have the funeral tag in my car...hahaha.<br /><br />Its weird now. I feel a little empty now that I have nothing to do.<br /><br />I haven't worked all week because I have had to be with my family since Tuesday.<br /><br />This whole thing has put a lot into perspective for me. Life is a beautiful thing and we shouldn't waste it. My grandpa was a world traveler and has been to SO MANY places. I hope that I can go to half the places he has been.<br /><br />ARIZONA IN TWO WEEKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!Jennifer Landonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10259737439436972740noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4103716941512351560.post-91665387605892890302009-02-26T19:09:00.000-08:002009-02-26T19:16:02.565-08:00HAPPY BIRTHDAY GRAMPA!!!Today was his showing and there were so many people there! About every hour there was a new wave of people walking in. It was crazy and my feet are killing me.<br /><br />The funny thing is that it was his birthday today. We got him a card from the kids and the grand kids and then we got him a card from my grandma to him. My mom gave him her hole in one ball and I gave him an old golf ball.<br /><br />When we first got there I could see the top of his head from the casket. When it was the family's time to go in there and see him and make sure he looked okay before people came I couldn't do it.<br /><br />I freaked out and started crying and sat in the "family" room until every sat down. I eventually went up to his casket but I couldn't look for long.<br /><br />I feel like tomorrow I will have to wait until everyone has left to say goodbye to him.<br /><br />Its just weird to think that he isn't going to be at family functions anymore.<br /><br />Mehh. So tomorrow is his funeral.<br /><br /><br />It's funny, a certain someone has not called in his condolences. That little bitch. I guess he tried out for the family but was too much of a pussy. OH WELL.Jennifer Landonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10259737439436972740noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4103716941512351560.post-88017241643967419362009-02-24T11:54:00.000-08:002009-02-24T12:03:41.191-08:00I love You Gammpy<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgprxgcBBt36mvYw3dFMAI9ywjxWmTHGYx-V81NrOhn1Mi-tIS4zJ1eg-2E7Cptye69GGINBsTt7tdotLvN3nKNUlM1KdsOgX5U2EJndTnz-vHsHe6I8U7tkh49RvgWz9S0P36gpg5f7vKd/s1600-h/DSC_0070.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer; width: 320px; height: 213px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgprxgcBBt36mvYw3dFMAI9ywjxWmTHGYx-V81NrOhn1Mi-tIS4zJ1eg-2E7Cptye69GGINBsTt7tdotLvN3nKNUlM1KdsOgX5U2EJndTnz-vHsHe6I8U7tkh49RvgWz9S0P36gpg5f7vKd/s320/DSC_0070.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5306455109580421970" border="0" /></a><br /><br />My grandpa passed away this morning. It happened around 9:30 am and he went peacefully.<br /><br />He passed at his home.<br /><br />I got their around 1. I think I may still be in shock...with everything that has happened in the past two weeks.<br /><br />Its hard to think that he is gone. Its hard to think that at every family function he wont be there.<br /><br />Its hit me, but it hasn't fully hit me.<br /><br />I don't have much to say...<br /><br />I love you Gammpy and now you are with Brian. Your birthday is February 26th...that's in about 2 days..<br /><br />I will bring some golf balls to put in your coffin on Thursday. Maybe we can put a golf club in there? Hahahah, no I am kidding, but I might bring you some golf balls...seriously.<br /><br /><br />Okay now I sound batty. I just love you and I will drive past your grave every day I work at Naked Tchopstix...and I will visit you too.Jennifer Landonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10259737439436972740noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4103716941512351560.post-58583567810616997502009-02-22T12:46:00.000-08:002009-02-22T12:53:35.130-08:00<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjLdHGBfpSNpRKl6TsBNhcgO0Y_svrsTyK2Z_uyuh3X_A_VHbdjcj69zyta-iMZj-3mqAMtBnZPr-JPiETn_z69otXJ-cmCniTsIkbdcB5zmu0KjHwb2-JwT02isHk0HoPaGDO2VD0TxbKP/s1600-h/GP+family.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer; width: 320px; height: 175px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjLdHGBfpSNpRKl6TsBNhcgO0Y_svrsTyK2Z_uyuh3X_A_VHbdjcj69zyta-iMZj-3mqAMtBnZPr-JPiETn_z69otXJ-cmCniTsIkbdcB5zmu0KjHwb2-JwT02isHk0HoPaGDO2VD0TxbKP/s320/GP+family.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5305726263071867010" border="0" /></a><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgUExfYY-8FH3MtYwaeEswDJJTUaFSFCROFuA7241q32wyUI_0n-SeWjAqrwDmJiciRsPWpxQfkWE0UapQCm6u4nCJ6zoCsYzykPxkGXKoowAkmXQvujH_5Zc3h21SCeK8eeeSKEyWD3_11/s1600-h/GP+5093.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer; width: 198px; height: 320px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgUExfYY-8FH3MtYwaeEswDJJTUaFSFCROFuA7241q32wyUI_0n-SeWjAqrwDmJiciRsPWpxQfkWE0UapQCm6u4nCJ6zoCsYzykPxkGXKoowAkmXQvujH_5Zc3h21SCeK8eeeSKEyWD3_11/s320/GP+5093.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5305726256088980402" border="0" /></a><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgTz8a0673wbavqv3UnK4RQj49zNd14TFwTUMyyOdpebzz_t5_6ZuM8uZ-pFYDpn8RgBWioUXJDN1xsKR0Ay5fWX645IiyN69hvq2iz0gT0SIk0VIGzbqb56hgjf-2uRuqX9ZPlmkz1p2y8/s1600-h/GP+5092.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer; width: 320px; height: 242px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgTz8a0673wbavqv3UnK4RQj49zNd14TFwTUMyyOdpebzz_t5_6ZuM8uZ-pFYDpn8RgBWioUXJDN1xsKR0Ay5fWX645IiyN69hvq2iz0gT0SIk0VIGzbqb56hgjf-2uRuqX9ZPlmkz1p2y8/s320/GP+5092.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5305726256426486946" border="0" /></a><br /><br />I just wanted to put these up here now. Hospice said that he only had a couple of days left on Friday. My entire family is there right now and I wish i could be there. But seeing as how I work two jobs, take two classes and have to support myself, I can't be there.<br />I haven't been around grandpa when the entire family is there and that is what I really want. I know that my uncles and aunt and mom are not taking this very well and I know that my cousin Josh is having a hard time with it. Morgan lost her daddy when she was really young so I can only imagine that she isn't doing the best either. I feel like I have to carry this entire family happiness and well being on my back. That is a task I am willing to take. Who cares about what other people have done to me. A certain someone is out of my life and not apart of my family and I can only rejoice in the fact that I realized it before it was too late.<br /><br />So I will keep my head high and keep on smiling because there is nothing that can bring me down.Jennifer Landonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10259737439436972740noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4103716941512351560.post-49541631553283542452009-02-21T11:41:00.000-08:002009-02-21T11:45:17.781-08:00Monday, Monday, MondayGah! I have so much to do on Monday...hahah.<br /><br />To Do List:<br /><br />1.) finish reading for ethics class.<br />2.) go to math class<br />3.) call the new apartment place and fill out the application there<br />4.) call the..."guy"<br />5.) call another guy who can give me more advice.<br />6.) go to ethics class.<br /><br />It doesn't seem like much but I have like a 4 hour window to do these things in between math and ethics class.<br /><br /><br /><br />But anyway, last night was fun. I feel like an asshole for showing up half way drunk but it was a good time none the less!Jennifer Landonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10259737439436972740noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4103716941512351560.post-59543089474691820922009-02-19T21:49:00.001-08:002009-02-19T22:00:24.345-08:0021st floor<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgKxVNUwb_0bjz2bHMlGnZdDTnNOsgxXY0AVAER9ygrlFutoLsLZjCzDoJiOpDMMuZ8FqdLS5xdICbrdeAYXFCB8QkWoVWUXWdkGhygKsCW98B6onkOf_n74QCBr1OXeOqiRQCuEc9_Dgln/s1600-h/DSC_0048.JPG"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer; width: 213px; height: 320px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgKxVNUwb_0bjz2bHMlGnZdDTnNOsgxXY0AVAER9ygrlFutoLsLZjCzDoJiOpDMMuZ8FqdLS5xdICbrdeAYXFCB8QkWoVWUXWdkGhygKsCW98B6onkOf_n74QCBr1OXeOqiRQCuEc9_Dgln/s320/DSC_0048.JPG" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5304754793958104802" border="0" /></a><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhXXOPb9aOH4fVu-TlLwt9IOM-XUBvUhDu6pGVjy7mZxVKy5qCJ8EAjE_DMoVwRpiVZ9TPQd6CNIm3VaQT8VsZXCGdAVUFGNZbqC1CONcwSQIpUasb_eDxsW2CzBYzBHKf87DjY0a3Y6MB5/s1600-h/DSC_0046.JPG"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer; width: 320px; height: 213px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhXXOPb9aOH4fVu-TlLwt9IOM-XUBvUhDu6pGVjy7mZxVKy5qCJ8EAjE_DMoVwRpiVZ9TPQd6CNIm3VaQT8VsZXCGdAVUFGNZbqC1CONcwSQIpUasb_eDxsW2CzBYzBHKf87DjY0a3Y6MB5/s320/DSC_0046.JPG" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5304754790766062738" border="0" /></a><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiOdnTkdwt_4fD_wuvxsfUH9h0RXNj2HsvJ4WUsGlfTpJPvvLj89k75BU0sZHOh6FAyIt7p6-SYCbjP6vl0ou38KpK8OMwNTlLeGBJsnO1xx7WTPshH4JKHLrfaSxLI7nfcKdDt8TyeE6pV/s1600-h/DSC_0053.JPG"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer; width: 320px; height: 213px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiOdnTkdwt_4fD_wuvxsfUH9h0RXNj2HsvJ4WUsGlfTpJPvvLj89k75BU0sZHOh6FAyIt7p6-SYCbjP6vl0ou38KpK8OMwNTlLeGBJsnO1xx7WTPshH4JKHLrfaSxLI7nfcKdDt8TyeE6pV/s320/DSC_0053.JPG" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5304754783248473810" border="0" /></a><br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjWQgBERs1Yq69wsrCoTLVL7eO-J4WZw2DupYZRNKPd0earpXWII4gTDGR2JeK-oNLnwbPeFR3Ba0a3LvZKvqej1tCZKndOevjrrGWqUfyqeNZLtdE5zEhV_R4Se_vJwmFONMaKrvEAc8cF/s1600-h/DSC_0051.JPG"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer; width: 320px; height: 213px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjWQgBERs1Yq69wsrCoTLVL7eO-J4WZw2DupYZRNKPd0earpXWII4gTDGR2JeK-oNLnwbPeFR3Ba0a3LvZKvqej1tCZKndOevjrrGWqUfyqeNZLtdE5zEhV_R4Se_vJwmFONMaKrvEAc8cF/s320/DSC_0051.JPG" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5304754769859026546" border="0" /></a>I know these are really small so check my flickr for them.<br /><br />These aren't edited and I don't know if I want to edit them.<br /><br />I would have to say that the this is one of the best views of Indianapolis that I have ever seen. Monument Circle is so beautiful and I could probably sit there for hours and just look at it.<br /><br />I have the nicest dude ever. :)Jennifer Landonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10259737439436972740noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4103716941512351560.post-70232918377960532172009-02-19T13:15:00.000-08:002009-02-19T13:31:31.587-08:00:)<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi2YkoamPiXpgOtYurwfFDtTpMTQXiKdFxv7qARqsgmyfIBK5LLsH6P5m_byFrBru2Aki-yE9olbgvn3aMBIJM_aXAykvF_R5545zH0EiXKxebVUm6S6lEoQKNZx21f93dN8tz6nJ-MXcZ7/s1600-h/DSC_0019.jpg"><img style="margin: 0px auto 10px; display: block; text-align: center; cursor: pointer; width: 320px; height: 159px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi2YkoamPiXpgOtYurwfFDtTpMTQXiKdFxv7qARqsgmyfIBK5LLsH6P5m_byFrBru2Aki-yE9olbgvn3aMBIJM_aXAykvF_R5545zH0EiXKxebVUm6S6lEoQKNZx21f93dN8tz6nJ-MXcZ7/s320/DSC_0019.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5304623443135052178" border="0" /></a><br />Whats done is done.<br /><br />I think it is funny that some people seem to think I <span style="font-style: italic;">still </span>actually want to be with that little boy. I wish I did for you sake. You have much to learn. Hahahah, but I mean, if you want to blow this all off on "she is just a crazy ex-girlfriend" then go for it.<br />Your opinions do not matter to me anyway....but you can still keep reading my blog.<br /><br />But, I don't have to worry about this anymore. It's been left in the hands of my lawyer.<br /><br /><br /><br /><br />Its time to laugh and live my life! Which is exactly what I am going to do! I have already started off on the right foot, getting rid of bad people in my life! :)<br /><br />I am really really really excited to go to Arizona and I cannot wait! I can't wait to see Zach and Rob the most! I hear its beautiful out there and it's warm. The drive is the part I am most excited for! Such a long distance! I have never driven that far in my life and it should be interesting.<br /><br />Tonight I am going downtown for a photo adventure! I am going to the top floor of the Sheraton Hotel to take photos of the Indianapolis Skyline. We all know that it's my specialty.<br /><br />Expect photos later.Jennifer Landonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10259737439436972740noreply@blogger.com0